*Some people just need a push in the wrong direction in order to find the right one.* So i started over or so to speak. I pretended he didnt exist. I pretended i didnt want him.. well i guess i didnt need to pretend. I had my eyes on somebody else that night. It was nice to finally realize what i was looking at for so long. bad hair, bad teeth. cocky litle bastard. he's short too. I figure that if i just be myself then i should do alright. It's worked so far since i stopped banging him EVERYDAY. I think thats all i ever liked about him, Sex, he's good ya know. I've yet to have better. so theres something to strive for. (B52's-Love Shack) I've decided that all's well now. Or should be. I like Ryan, for all of you who dont know who that is than screw you. he's shy. it's nice to be around somebody like that for once. I only spent about 2 hours with him on friday night at DV8's show. We talked about music alot. That i can deal with as well. I feel that I've wasted a good many years pining over a foolish daydream. GOD i can do so much better than that toothless wonder. (Love Stinks- J-Geils band) Love STINKS YEA YEA !!!! god some thigns are way to true to believe in. Do you understand that? I do. Doesnt mattre if you do.. all is well in candy land after all. i stood up Adam and Marc last night. Thats goes to sho how strong i can be. And adam can be so tempting to hang out with... i dont like being around marc though. hes exactly like dan... except smaller in some ways. I made Dave laugh very hard when i told him that. (roam-B52's) Without any idez of what i want, I shall venture into the world. I'm optimistic, you should know that by now. -candy