wow. i love that mood. I have no reason whatsoever to want to live. Things with the family suck. Things with friends suck. I HATE MY FUCKING SELF BECAUSE I'M A GODDAMN BITCHY DUMBASS WHO NEVER LEARNS HER LESSON. I hate everything that has been happening. And when I think maybe it'll all change I'M WRONG. AND I HATE THIS and all i can do is cry. and my fucking phone is pissing me off. and the internet. and everybody. and my parents. and especially that kid who i'm not gonna say the name of. peter told me to say i'm not interested in a relationship right now but i think it's too late for that. jeremy's such a fucking asshole. i hate him. i can't believe i thought i liked him again. WHY? whatever. it's over now. im just not going to care anymore and i think it might be a good idea to turn my phone off. and i don't give a shit if i have a small ass. so shut the fuck up kid. i really don't want to go to winter formal. but it's too late for that now. i have to. i can't just like say no. FUCK. i should just talk to megan. she makes everything better. haha. she told me i should go out with her brother. yea fucking right. like he would ever go out with me. this is all a bunch of bullshit and im tired of being so fucking emo.