well i honestly don't know why i get so jealous. but...it isn't even always about people i like a lot. i just get jealous easily. like nick. haha. nothing was ever going on between us...but i still feel kinda hurt now. lol. so stupid. but....he.said.i.was.special. because i was sorta talking to him about all the other girls who would wanna like kiss him or something(?) and I was like...all those girls on your myspace like me! and he said that i was special & the rest weren't really. sooo...whatever. i guess i'm just gonna go along with this believing him thing because today after he didn't see me he sent me this HUGE message saying how bummed he was. And then...like...oh my fucking gosh it was great. he was having a convo with me except i wasn't talking and it made me laugh soooo much. && that's what I love. but anyway...i talk about him a lot. it's just when i talk about him i'm happy. & that's what i've been needing.