ok so this week. good, bad, good, bad, okay. so zach says we will hang out saturday. i see him yesterday. he makes me smile! he asks later if i want to hang out but it's already 11:39 and no..i can't because i'm at tara's. (we had just gone to the dance which was...well ok). So he sends me a message today asking if I'd like to see a movie. I say yes. He says he'll call me later. I wait. I go to Marissa's. We watch Thumbelina and She's All That and The Excorcist prequel. (Tara is there too). It is 11:30 and he still hasn't called. I gave up at 8:30. Actually I think I knew there was never any hope. I think I gave up yesterday. Yesterday school went by quickly. Yay. Spring break is finally fucking here. And we went to the pool. Skylar happened to be there. It was fun. This week will be...i don't know. Going to Magic Mountain on monday. with so many people. i don't even know who is going anymore. i was so hyper earlier. energy drink. candy. cookies. foooood. last night was fun. we just talked on tara's kitchen floor while she complained how dirty it is. "she was all up in his business!" and "my momma brought me up that way" were my black moments I had. They laughed at me. So I am a tease. So what? (I realized it last night.) If I did have a boyfriend, which I probably won't for awile because guys are not dependable, I would stop flirting with everyone else but I'm going to live for the moment and just have fun. Who cares who it is I'm having fun with?! I'm leaving now. <3