is it because her pants are tighter? because her boobs are bigger? because she's an ugly ho? why? why would he lie to me like that...he said he wasn't...i'm so confused. and hurt. and i miss him more than ever. and i have no clue why because all that he's caused me ever since last year is pain, confusion, frustration...and sometimes...he makes me smile uncontrollably. i aced my biology final. i got extra credit in tech lit somehow. i got a b- on the geometry final. overall, i'm happy with my grades. and tomorrow i get to sleep in. but grades don't do much for me. maybe last year they would have...but now i have more important things to think about. like band. and how disappointed daniel looked in me when i told him i didn't audition. i hate talking to my parents on the phone. i get so impatient with them because they just don't shut the fuck up. and i hate my biology class. i hate being the only one in there who isn't like...good friends with another person in there. so i end up sitting. by myself. with no one to talk to. and it's annoying as fuck. i'm so tired. but like just awhile ago i had a ton of energy. whatever. amanda and i went to the mall before going to anacapa and yeah...i was kinda acting weird and you had to be there. and we went into limited too and almost bought marissa a bra. but then it was like 10 dollars. well. i don't have anything to say anymore because...i want a life.