so i guess all they do in drumline/marching band when they hang out is talk about other people. I didn't really enjoy having to sit there and listen to it and feel completely left out. Tara felt that way too- the left out part. But of course, as usual, it probably got to me more. Urggggh. In PE I like made the biggest fool of myself, tripped a girl & fell down with her, almost killed someone like 3 times w/the volleyball (cameron), & almost got hit in the head twice. I think Cameron & I are gonna become friends since we kept like running into each other and stuff. it was fun though. I just laughed at myself. and YESS the sophomores weren't thereeee. In geometry the test was rather...difficult? But I don't care what I got. Grr...other cameron kid like...friggin stalked me...i need some sort of restraining order. In band I got to sit next to Michael!!!!!!! YAY! And then Daniel...who scared me. and then back in my usual spot...:( but yea. At lunch i saw justin and supposedly devin got a girlfriend (I'm happy for him though b/c he told me he liked her and he actually asked her out! yay! i didn't even have to interfere with it.) But umm....yes. In tech lit we watched some lame movie & stewart kept playing with my head and stuff. and then carrick let me listen to his cd player w/him while the movie was on so i was happy. c-to-the-arrick ROcKs. after school rob used my phone (probably the only reason he was being nice) and I talked to ryman (ryan) for the first time in like AGES. But then i left & met tara at the band room. we chilled & then me, her and marissa went to VONS and walked around acting all drugged up for the longest time because we couldn't decide what to buy. Eventually we just went to Burger King to meet Lauren, jacob & tyler. Of course I was the one who paid. But whatever. And then I left them because I thought they had to leave so I went to vons again alone to buy gum! and uhh...then on the way out michael & glennis were walking back to buena so I walked with them & it was fun. but oh my fucking gosh. my fucking life is none of her fucking business so i wish she would fucking stop getting her fucking self involved. i mean yeah, yesterday it was kinda nice that she told me, but I still didn't appreciate her doing it in the first place. and thhen today she's fucking trying to ruin things for me again. what a bitch. and they had to talk about friday in front of me. ok i'm really starting to get sick of all this being ditched by my fucking "best friends" shit. just because i don't go to the same school, and i don't hang out with matt, skylar, rachel, tyler & them at lunch, doesn't mean they can just assume I'm not around at all. so either i need new friends, or...new friends. OR maybe i should let them know how i feel instead of hurtfully telling them to go ahead without me b/c i don't fucking matter. whatever. i don't want to go to my lesson. I don't even know what i was supposed to practice...oh well. and david called AGAIN. Luckily my phone wasn't with me so I couldn't answer it. And of course, the polite thing to do would be to call him back and ask what the fuck he wanted...but i don't think he deserves politeness because he's a fucking perverted asshole. well i'm not sure about the asshole part. but i don't like him. at all. so i'm going to go like...lay in my warm bed or something because i have nothing better to do.