ok wow. dude. i slapped my mom. on the face. and i laughed after. i laughed when she told my dad. i smiled when he yelled at me. and then when i sat down to eat dinner...i started crying. and left. went into my room and cried and ate my dinner. but whatever. my mom said she forgave me. then why the fuck did she keep talking behind my back to my dad?? yea, i can hear everything they say so i always know. they need to learn how to talk quieter. anyway...and i'm pissed at that little bitch. she just wants pity. we all know it. i'm sick of it. so i didn't talk to her. i don't plan on it. i'm so paranoid right now. i had plans for tomorrow. but she killed them when she pissed me off. i was willing to help her. and help myself at the same time. i wanted to walk. in the pouring rain. and see where we ended up. but now i guess we won't. because i hate how she's acting. if she wants some FUCKING HELP maybe she should see if there's really a FUCKING PROBLEM. and then maybe she should let me know. my dad gave me 20 bucks for ipod music. i got 2 songs so far. "ice ice baby" (vanilla ice) and "butterfly" (crazy town) because those songs are really memorable. I want to see my brother!!!!! damn this break is boring. and stupid fucking boy who i thought i was "involved" with? well he's a fucking moron so fuck that. and he doesn't even talk to me anymore anyway... it seems like everything's starting to piss me off again. and i really wanted to go to the mall. but now i know if i do then I will just get into my depressed mood and not enjoy the experience. i hate the mall most of the time. especially when i'm with her. i love going with marissa though. i should go with her. i love her.