i have to be host on this show we have in the school, in like 30 min, and i am so camera shy. last time i had a panic attack! i was so himulitated! i was cring and everything. now i have to do it agin and worse yet, i actually have to get graded now. this totally sucks. and for matt, my friend with the eating diorder, he is in his "old" ways. he said he had stopped and then yesterday he was like i have to go barf up my food then take a shower. when my friend and i tried to talk to him about what he was doing, and how we wanted to help him, he flew off the handle. he ended up hanging up with us and not picking up our calls for the rest of the night. i am so worried about him, and i wanna help him, but i can't do anything for him if he doesn't want to help himself. i kept having bad dreams about him dying, from lack of food, and i am just so scared. i don't want him to end up like those sad stories in the papers that everyone feels bad for. i love him sooooo much and i can't stand the fact he is destroying his body. my friend and i are after the same guy, but it is kinda funny cuz he's going out with anthor one of our friends, and we are both like i won't go out with him if you aren't ok with it, and it's just soo funny! if anyone has any other ideas about matt please help me because it seems like i have tried everything......