i feel so bad and i dont know why. i like to think i am moving on but im not. and whats to move on from anyways? you cant move on from something you never really had. why does he always make me feel like shit when i go out with anyone that isnt him? even if its my mother...why? why can he go fuck as many people as he wants but i cant even have other friends?? this makes absoultly no scence at all!!!! is that he is just possesive? or is he even alittle jelous because of "feelings" for me? ugh i hate thinking. i hate how he makes me feel.. i hate everything in this world. just when i get a grasp at happiness... its ripped away by someone. by something... always.