nothing is what i feel...... how can someone not feel anything? no one is just numb to everything, and everyone. what's wrong with me? i feel like i have a thousand secret that i have to spill but i don't have the strength to say them all. if people only knew what i held back from them,mabe they'd understand why i am the way i am. mabe they will except me for me or mabe they will hate me because i am me. i have locked away things i have forgotten and supressed things that mabe i shouldn't have. then when things remind me of one of the lost memeries, it's so much harder to stare them in the face agin. not everyone can be happy, but i've fallen harder to the ground then i have ever fell before.