i am not angry,nor am i offened. it is just my foul curse that i must learn to live with. you would think that i have do to how many times this happened. but i am soo sick of the shit that surronds my boring drawn out life. I AM SO SICK OF BEING REJECTED FOR BEING WHO I AM....this is what is stuck on my mind. why would someone be so cruel to "dis" someone. i am so sick of feeling like this, and sometimes the best way to get shit off your chest is to just spew to complete strangers as i am doing now.i can't stand myself sometimes. mabe that is because it seems as if others can't stand me...i don't know what is wrong with me lately. i am more than likely sounding like a basket case but i don't care. i just really don't any more. i am up to my "old" ways. cutting and over eating and sulking, feelimg sorry for myself. some one should just shoot me. at least then they won't ever have to look at my face agin. at least then i won't be wasting space in my good for nothing lousy selfish overweight discusting bitchy self centered body.