its weird to think that we are were we are. we use to be so in love and the the only thing that we could see was us. now there is a silence that we are stuck in and nothing anyone says is right. nothing is what the other person wants to hear and nothing is what the other person feels. its hard to stop lying after the past year. you cant keep telling me that we can be together one of these days then turn your story around and say we cant. i love you. and last night, we went threw so much. mabe we are just really best frineds and calling it love. or mabe we are just to young and stuck in other places. you may be with in 5 inches of me physcially, but everywhere elese, your one million miles away. its funny how you can be in a room with someone and still be so alone. mabe i should listen to your drunken babble of truth, and leave you behind. but what would it take from me if i could collect myself to do such a thing. i loose the only man i have ever loved and my true best frined, becasue honestly, you are it. you are my everything. i hate it, and i hate myself for being so dependant on you. but its something i cant help. i feel completly inlove with you, and now im just burning on ash. there is no more feul for me to run. will i ever find that feul from you agin? i dont know, and thats scary. almost terrifying. i dont know what i am doing here and i cant even honestly sort threw what i really want from you. mabe i am desprite. you told me before that if a person has hope, then they will survive. even if its a small amount. you gave me hope once, and now your taking it away.