i live quiet an empty exzistance. i sleep eat go to school go on the computer, do drugs drink shower and sleep. what kind of exzistance is that? im lokking for reasons to sort of just be alive, but i relize i am not alive, im living breatheing yes - but alive? what do i do? fish for compliments, look for pple that want to fuck me just so i can feel alittle better about myself. lol. what am i doing and who is this person im creating? i think i have it all figured out, but i dont and no im so directionless.... whats up whats down, i dont know. hmmmmm... just if i could be as happy on the inside as i appear out.