with so many tastes to taste things to touch feelings to feel sights to see stuff to hear smells to smell... life is not empty. people are empty. the things i know i: im scared to get hurt agin i still love him i am moving on the person i like now i know it will never happen. only in my dreams could it ever be. i want that one person that will love me unconditionally no matter what happens. alot of things arent my fault things get better but you have to pull urself threw them if u want to survive them i will always love my first love i know that i am confused about the state of mind i have when it comes to relationships i know i deseve better then what i set myself up for i know that i hate the desions i make i shouldnt think about one person as much as i do i am more hurt then i have ever been now i will never stopp looking even if the right person is right infront of my eyes i am miserable but i am happy where i am im too hard on myself most the time i cant speak how i really feel to people this is one of the most honest things i will ever write he will come back and i will get hurt agin sex is meaningless if u dont feel anything at all for the person ur with i hate meaningless sex i will never stop making myself appear easy i will destroy myself if i keep carrying on like i have been i am not ok right now but i will be fine everyone has bad things in their life i am the only person that can save myself.