i saw matt today and he made relize something in mabe a matter of 10 min. i am crazy.. haha... i really am but somehow he gives me a scence of easiness. i feel like im home when im with him, and home is something i have been looking for , for a good long time now. thats why i go literally insane if i ccant get a hold of him. its not because of the things i thoughtit was... its becasue im worried about my home being destroyed. thats probaly why i love him so much. no one has ever made me feel the things i do when im with him. i relized today that things will get better. it has too. no one is always down and out. i may be down now.... but im not out. i know i will get better and learn to relax alittle more then i am. its a perfect world if you choose to see it.