most definatly the same old shit, but a diffrent day. capt is comming up, and i am so worried bout it cuz i don't think i really learned anything much this year( or last now that i am thinking about it.) im gonna FAIL. that blows!!! mabe i will actually try to study, lol. but in other news: things are running up and attacking me from behind, such as projects, jobs, and all that other stuff. i remember when i was 10 i couldn't wait to be 16, and now that i am i wish i were 10 agin. it was seemingly alot easier then. everything is diffrent now just not in the way i thought it would've been. matt is a ok. i think, well, atleast he's talking to me agin. i am still at a loss for words when it comes to his "problems" but i really do relize now that if he can't help himself or at least want to help himself, no one elese can. i have said this before, but only half heartedly. my aunt and my uncle are getting a divorce... what elese is there to say? occiasionally, i am noticing that i am slipping away from my friends, or mabe they are the one's slipping from me. all the people i use to trust and depend on feel so cold and distant. it's probly just that really akward stage that a person goes threw, but i didn't except it to feel like this..... and wed. when i had that tv prodution class i was scared of failing when i had to take the test, turns out i didn't do as bad as i thought. i did worse. but on a happier note, i am going to start to write the script on this very short, very low in budget film that i plan on shooting over the summer imbetween my jobs. it will actually give me a reason to have a summer vacation. yea! love you all, gotta go. mah...