i live in connecticut, and i have the most boring life out of all my friends. not joking! well if you want to know what i look like i have light brown eyes, with dark brown hair, i am 5 ft. i dye my hair alot. i have been various shades of red, dirty blonde, black, like a blueish black, and redish orange in the past year and a half. i can be fun....but i have difficulties talking to people. and i drink and i smoke, and i have done pot twice in my life. i have family problems, and personal problems, but i never put them on anyone elese. my birthday is febuary 20, 1989, but when i am chatting i say i was born a year to three years earlier then that so it would appear that i am inbetween 17 - 19, although i am only 16. i love rock music, it heals me. and i have this unbearable feeling to have to get into trouble...but i never do. i love money, it makes the world go round, but i'm not superficial. you WILL see me in a dollar store, they are my best friend! lol. i get depressed alot but make shore no one can tell..unless they read what i write. i have never been inlove, although i always write about being broken hearted. i say i don't want to fall inlove but the truth is, that is what i want more than anything. i love the mystical stuff like faeries and dragons.i belive in ghosts and vampires. my relgion is wiccan. i don't have many friends, and out of them i am the only virgin. i have crushes on the people i know i can't get. i purpousely put myself in pain, and i think i do it because i like it. everything i say, i meant to say, although sometimes i say it was a slip up, and i remember what i say even when i am drunk, although the next day say i don't. i lie alot but i end up telling the truth on my own free will. i say things that never really happened to me to make me look somewhat intrusting. however, i am loyal and can be trusted 100%. if you tell me a secret it wil go to my death. i never thought i would live to see 16, but now that i am there, i don't think i will live to see 21. i am a very kind person, would do anything for the people i love. i get used alot, but it's ok to me because someone is paying attention to me, and it makes me feel good. sexually i have done things, but i haven't kissed anyone or had a faithful boyfriend. i have dreams of becoming an actress, but scrapped it once i figured out that it wouldn't work beacuse i am way to shy. so instead i say i want to be a writter, and that is just because i am good at it, not beacause i want to. i think school is useless for the, more creative type. i am a dreamer, but when i have to be forced into reality, i am practical. i like fixing things, even though i usally can't fix it. i like learning and figuring things out on my own rather then asking for help. i can't cry without feeling like i am a big pussy and that i am weak. my felings get hurt easily. i say things i never intend on doing. i hate to be surroned by people, but one of my biggest fears is to be alone. my other two are heights although i love being up high, and death, which i like studing. i am terrified of the unknown. i get upset when i am ignored but i want to just blend in. i dream of being famous, but i never know for what. i love england, and i don't know why. i say i love older, tall, dark and handsomes, when it seems to be the exzact opppisite. i wore my hair up in a bun untill 9th grade, when i began to wear ponytails, and pigtails. then in tenth i kept it down, and couldn't stand it being up.i love the rocker look but i am to poor to adapt it. secretly i hate half the friends i have. and i can't think of anything eles....