well today(or late last night) i ran into one of the only guys i ever really could have loved. he is doing very quite well. that made me happy for him. but, he isn't straight anymore. he's gay. and its like ok? i hadn't seen him in two years and it was just so strange to find out that he was. i was inlove with him and now i can never have him. it kinda hurts....why? why would it hurt? i was waiting 2 and half years for him and.... now....i can't ever..love him. 2 and a half years gone, and i dont have anything to show for it, and i never will.