ok so a few days ago i tried to write this entry and it was so fucking long then it all deleted! i was so pissed, and cuz i can't remember everything... so this is how it breaks down.(try to stay with me) i like abel who is luna22's boyfriend who's friends with ashlie who's dating mat, who liked avis who is best buds with me and mat is like my dream guy. got that? if you did good job! if it wasn't me i wouldn't git it.lol. now that that is out of the way i can get into the freaker shit that's been happenin to me. i am not crazy but i keep seeing things that like just aren't there. 2 days ago i turned my head but like half way so that i could see the outline of someone behind me and i kept doing this cuz i wanted to figure out who was behind me. well i do it agin and i see the outline and figure this is silly and i should just see who is there. so i look and no one is there.so that made me feel like a runaway mental patient. and that is so not right! today i began to write a story. completly fictional. my first line is as follows: i was 14 when i lost my virginity to a 33 year old man with two kids and a wife. agin i feel obligated to repeat THIS DID NOT HAPPEN IN MY LIFE OR ANYONE THAT I KNOW'S LIFE. i have to say this cuz everyone that has read what i got so far thinks that it really is what happened to me. NO!!!! i have a much more tragic story to never be discussed with anyone but dead people. so the capts are going a ok. i think i might have actually done somewhat good on them. not to be concided, WAY TO GO ME!!! i had to get that out cuz this would be like the first thing i passed all year. lol,lol,lol,lol. there isn't much more to say, so i gotta go, and to all who have made it this far leave a message!!!