i feel really hopeful that things are going to be ok. i was sitting outside smoking and the sun was beating down on me as if to say hey kid... ur alright. in that one second the sun felt like it was just for me. giving me a brighter disposition on things and situations. i feel so much more relieved to know that things can better and the can also get worse. the diffrence is how you see it. if someone had died you can say they are gone and they are never comming back or you can say they are in a better place. Mabe thats all life is... learning how to just go with the flow and take things as they come. not to stress to much and to live as much as you love and breathe. i shall believe.