k... last night, Bible study went good. ^_^ meh sis didnt go. but me and meh friend tambra went. :) usually we try to sit in the back, on the floor, in the corner, against a wall (people call us corner people, or meh fav floor-wall-corner-people :P) hee hee. anyway, we sat outside by the fire (they wouldnt let us bring marshmellows :( lol) we sat behind everyone :) the sparks from the fire kept landin on us. lol. it was kinda scary, lol. and sean asked somethin about wehre the bus was, and i said i ate it =-/ and he said "jeez! was that ur dinner?!" like really loud. i jus laughed and said yes. cuz i'd never gotten that reaction from before when i said that..lol. and meh youth minister, tim, gave me a cd (its a demo he got for free...lol) of the band staple. they're gonna be at the church tuesday sangin and what not with the band desciple. i think im gonna go. tambra said shes gonna drag me there :P lol i listened to the cd sooo many times (hey theres only 4 songs on it :P) anyway, we sang most the time. and then there was a short lesson. and eli went to sit in his chair, but didnt realize it was so far back, and fell (u knew that was comin). it was so funny. he laughed and said "thats ok, the ground is more stable anyway." lol. he said we was ok, though :) ya know, i hadnt laughed that much in...months. (theres always somethin ta lugh about when im hangin with tamba:) i guess tahts what i needed cuz i feel alot better today. and today i talked to this guy, ben. ive known him for quite some time, but i hadnt talked to him fer a while (u'll see why as ya read more..)i met him in an egroup he owns. but eventually i left. i guess cuz it got kinda borin :P well, today he was bein the same guy i remember (a perv) *rolls eyes* he talked about what he would "do to me" if we were together. and i told marie and dave about him. and marie added him to her messenger. i asked her not to say that she got his addy from me. she told him she got his addy from the stars :P lol he said either she knows me or is me pretendin to be someone else. lol. when i met him he said he was 27, which would now make him 28. but he told marie hes 22. O.o sound fishy? yea it did to me too :P anyway, mine and marie's conversations with him were very similar (and not to mention, nasty). so, yea...ew. lol. and i talked to martin to day. yay! lol ya know..he doesnt seem to be like he used to. maybe its just me. i dunno. i should ask him whats up, but i dunno. maybe next time. i'll see. any advice ya have ish welcome :) see, whener one of us leaves, and we say our goodbyes, he usually gives me a hug and a kiss. but he didnt =-/ i mean...yea, he says he loves me, and he doesnt wanna lose me, and that he wouldnt let anythin happen to me...but, i dunno. maybe i listened to ed to much. lol. meh aunts are comin tomorrow. so i might not write back till monday or tuesday or somethin. who knows.