o.o;; i havn't talked to martin in three weeks. and it's annoying the hell outta me. it feels like someone's scooping my eyes with a spoon, while peeling off my fingers nails, one nail each day, and slowly carving into my neck with a rusty razer blade... i wonder he's doing... i wonder if i'm what's keeping him away.. ;_; and today, cory kept tellin me i should leave him. and i said ican't.. and then anna said i should, but she knows i can't cause i love him.. and when i was a convo with everyone they said said i should too.. 'sept shannon.. it's weird how only one person thinks i should with him.. but wether everyone tells me to or not, i'm not going to. not for the life of me.. i jus wanna know why he's not online.. ;_; and i was shakin soo bad when everyone kept sayin that.. it killed me @_@ well, almost. cause obviously i'm still here.. heh.. oooh, but i got two other kids now ^_^ since ashley doesnt wanna be mine anymore. but whatever. drew, he's 16. and tom. he's 14 ^_^ and ermm.. i had an energy drink today :) everyone said i didnt need one.. but they're wrong :P they give me a bit of that happiness ^^;;; and i met some people.. well, one.. i think o.o sean. he's.. i dunno how old.. but he lives in.. vermont? or somethin. yea.. oh, and renamed people. tayler is now sam. andrew is bill. anna is bret. cory is john. and umm.. jazzie is still moomoo.. lol. i still need a nick name for ed. i'm determined to find one.. hey, that should be one of my new years resolution.. but ed doesnt like some of the names i pick for him ;_; ah well.. k.. i'm gone now.. pray for me.. ;_;