i was goin back and forth from "braindead" and "breathless". too bad ya cant pick two ^_^ i was supposed to go to jason and travis' houe tonight, but my mom said we have other thing to do. but really, she jus did. and now we cant go. and then we were gonna do somethin with bailey, but her grandma wouldnt let her. and then we were gonna do somethin with, zach but fer some reason we couldnt. and im kinda bored. lol. i need somethin to do. =-/ ummm....tomorrow ish coral's b-day party. but i cant go cuz i have Bible study. but oh well ^_^ i mean, i wanna go, but im already commited to this. i'll see coral on...hopefully sunday :) i was talkin to meh brother chris today, about me meeting martin. and i wa shaving doubts that i'll ever meet him. and he said, "u'll meet him. i can feel it." i dunno if i really will....but i really really want to. and i cant wait till i do :) im relaly tryin to find a job, but none are comin my way. i get to meet two people when i go to england. martin, and ed. ed said he'd be there with me for a day (martin fer a week, yay!! heehee). but...i need a job. (like ive said a million times already. lol). but march seems too far away ;_; but im sure the wait will be worth it ^_^