lessee.. i looked for a job. i applied at a few. i still have more i can apply at :) now my mom's buggin me to find one.. that jus adds more pressure to everything :P i think, me, tom, and marie got a divorce.. lol. cause, marie asked tom to be with her. he said yes. but she was still with mel at the time. so it ended badly for them :/ but me and jazzie are still together :D lol.. hey, i never said that story did i?.. lol. ok, well. kira sent me, and jazzie a pic of her friend. and me and jazzie didnt think he was that good looking. so kira and taylor started callin me and jazzie lesbians. but instead of letting it get to us, me and jazzie started lfirting with eachother (jokingly). and that made them say it more. but it didnt stop us :P but we've kept it up since then (this was march 28th) and that night taylor got made at me, cause he said i was trying to take jazzie from him.. lmao. but it was jus a joke.. anyhow, whenever me and jazzie talk to them, we do that :P kira left the first time, cause she it was disgusting.. oh well :P i wanna move so bad.. i'm tired of being here. tired of being around people are supposed to be my friends, but act like stupid people from school.. they talk behind my back.. literally. sunday i was walkin outta coral and crystal's apartment, and jason, travis, and beth started talkin bout me and my sister. they claim we were acting all depressed. but i had a crappy day the day before, and was still comin off it that day. and i felt sick. and they complained we weren't saying anything. but everytime we did, they took the conversation between the three of them. so why should i even try? but then yesterday, they all wanted to come up here. at first i *really* didnt want to. but then after i thought, "ok. maybe this time will be different." well, when my sis was talkin to trav, in the background beth said, "are they gonna be all depressed again?" *rolls eyes* and then after a couple hours, they called and said they weren't coming cause of the "weather". it was only cloudy! not like it was really windy, or rainy or anything. and yea, maybe part of feelin like crap is cause i havnt talked to martin or anything. but come on! it's not like i deliberatly went out to make myself feel that way. i'd much rather feel happy.. or atleast content with everything.. er.. most stuff :/ if i could get a job, i could move. i wanna move in with cherice ^_^ like her, me, and my sis could get an apartment ^_^ that'd rock! :D i jus thought of that :) and anna's been gone.. so i havnt really taked to anyone bout all that :/ well, i did sarah.. kinda ^^; oh!! btw! WELCOME BACK SARAH!!! :D and i talked to dave yesterday :) him and his band jus got two new songs, and he sent them to me :) he seems to be doin a bit better :) so glad to know he is ^_^ ooooooh! and i found my old friend daya on myspace ^^ i miss her ;_; hopefully we can see her soon ^_^ that's about all ^^;