i jus wanted to tell you, i love you more than you may know. i hate being away from you. each second seems like an eternity. and each second feels like like it's slowly ripping off each finger nail, slowly tearing it away more and more, second by second; and scooping out my eyes with a spoon; and cutting at my skin with a dull, rusty blade. i jus wanna know how you feel. and if it's not the same, how is it? i also wanted you to know you're never off my mind, and i'd give up everything, and do anything to be with you forever. i always get so nervous when i talk to you. but it's ok. i never want it to go away. i wish i could always be there when you need me; or jus wanted me. i wish distance wasnt real. cause with it, you're so far away. but everytime i think of you, it makes me smile :) when i dream, i swear i can almost feel you, and it seems so real. but when i wakr up, you're not there. i hope someday (soon) my dream will be real and my wishes will come true. and maybe i can make your dreams and wishes come true. i know i may be a hard person to be in a relationship with, and i'm sorry. i try not be that way. i guess it jus comes naturally. people keep telling me i should leave you, because not alot as i'd like you to be. but i keep telling them i wouldn't leave you for anything. you're the only one i ever want to be with. and i hope you are the only one i'm with. ok.. so... maybe you don't feel the same as me. and there's prolly other girls taht live closer to you and that are better than me.. i understand that.. but i really hope i'm the one you want.. i'm prolly boring you with all this, so i guess what i'm really trying to say is that i love you, and i never want to lose you. i coulda jus summed all this up and said, "everytime you're gone, i miss you more and mmore. and whenever you are there, i'm breathless." but oh well :) heart