yesterday, we went to church. bailey came up to me and poked me. it scared the crud outta me @_@ lol. we were gonna go to the beach in pismo after, but zack couldnt go, so bailey couldnt go (her gramma doesnt let her do anythin unless a guy is there). so we went to hailey's birthday party (i dont even know her, but she goes to my church). i was soo bored. lol. (i dont like parties >_<). derrick, levi, and jack made a firecracker. it was kinda funny ta see everyone run. lol. we left early.. then we went to a bar b q at 4. we got there early, jus cuz. :P i was kinda bored there too, cuz meh parents were there. i dont like them goin to youth group things cuz its like my time to get away from them. sean came up to me and said "hey dark metal" and i was like o.O "eh?" (hes so stereotypical...but hes cool). but i called him polo (he likes that name brand, polo). at bout 7 zack got there, and seemed kinda ticked off bout somethin... i got an email from martin. im s glad to hear from him, but it was really sad ;_; he said his dad and his friend commited suicide ;_; he got mugged and beaten up ;_; im kinda worried, cuz it all happend at once...and i dun want him to do what his dad and friend did. cuz before we were together, he said he wnted to die, and no one would miss him ;_; but i sure would! ;_; and marie, and dave dun seem to be doin good either, and it worries me...and so does a few other people ;_;