gah~! meh voice ish kinda there..but not really. it goes in and out. and im jus makin it worse when i try to talk. i cant go that long! lol. i dont wanna go to the doctor. no one knows how bad i cant stand them. im soo scared of them. maybe i have cancer..heh, that would be the answer to everythin. i wouldnt hafta be here anymore :) woot~! (lol, dun ask...) im talkin to dave. and yesterday he was better. but today...hes not...he got a hair cut and he dun like it. he said he didnt like himself before, and this makes it worse. but hes an awesome person and he cant see that. i told him the hair doesnt make the person, and he said but thats not what everyone else will look at. and yea thats true. but eveyrone's jus blind cuz they cant see what a great guy he is. i mean, hes so nice, and other people seem to take advantage of him (atleast, thats what i gather from what ive heard). i wish there was somethin more i could do :( heh, i hafta go to the doctor. ;_; im scared... ############################### woo, made it out alive..meh mum and the doc thought i had strep throat. i kept sayin i didnt. they did a test (the one where they stick the swab in yer throat and it looks like a giant q-tip)(i have the worst gag reflax...)anyhow, they did the test, and i dont have it! i win! :P lol. i hafta take 7 pills today and tomorrow. the 5 are steriods (lol) i take 2 today and tomorrow, then the next 2 days, i take 4 and then the next 3 and so on till i have no more (i think they're for the swelling (trust me, ish big)) then 2 are for the infection (in meh throat, tonsals or whatever). and i have this gargal stuff (it tastes like crap). it makes me feel sick to meh stomack (i have record. i have thrown up in well over 5 years). i hafta wait 15 mins to eat somethin after that. but with the pills i hafta eat somethin with it (ya think they're tryin ta make me fat?) :P and it hurts ta take the pills (they dont go down quite so easy..). i was at the doc fer a lil over an hour...i kept tryin to escape but meh plan was fer the other doc's office (family med. center). but meh mum took me to this one (i think ish the red cross...i dunno but ish by see's candy :p lol) meh face ish swollen, meh throats swollen, and ick >_< ish nasty. heh...ugh. i was scared when i was there. i think the people in the waitin room could tell. i was shakin and everythin. ick >_< then when we went to longs to pick up meh meds, i found out im not covered by the life insurance to get any medication. but fer doc and hosp. visits i am...O.o oh well :) not really my worry (even though i do worry about it..). *shrugs* i guess thats all...