"....oh pretty baby how could you? standing in the rain.." it seems as though three people i need to be here have fallen off the face of the earth or something. my brother, i talked to him the other day and everything. but he said his mum might kick him out (yesterday). and he didnt come on. now i dunno if he's ok @_@ i dunno where he is. @_@ and dave, my "son". he's gone too. i havnt a clue if he's ok. cause the last conversation was heart wrenching. he thought no one cared about him. he thought i didnt care about him. ever since i met him i told him i care. and what he said scared the hell outta me. i havnt talked to him in well over a week and a half. @_@ gosh... @_@ "everybody is tired and boring and sick of trying...." and martin. of all people. hasnt been on in like a week. it very well may be my fault @_@ i wont go into details though. i'm already on edge. @_@ "...shi**y weather, lucky penny, glued to the ground..." and my friend...i told him something....i think he looks at me differently now. and same with a few other people... cause i'm dumb... "...this is how it goes. you can sell my body but you cant seel my soul. this is how it goes" and i hafta go to my grandma's in bit. yea. wow. great. it seems like everytime i go there they call me stupid. i guess they dont like my sarcasm or jokes or whatever you'd call it. yea. and my aunt hits me for sayin somethin stupid. i mean, yea, it may have been dumb to say. but hit me? yea. thanks "well i tripped. i fell down naked. i scratched my knees they bled. sewup my eyes. need no more..." do you how bad it is to drink 3 energy drinks in two hours? it's quite refreashing and all. but the effect it gives you....man @_@ i drank one lil 5 oz one. it has the same amount of caffiene as two coffees. and two rock stars, in those bigger cans. i couldnt see very well. i was shaking soooo bad. everything was getting black. my head hurt, it felt like it was gonna pop. and i couldnt walk straight. but i was hyper to say the least. i jus wouldnt reccomend anyone do that...trust me.... ick >_< "...i cut the cord free fall. from so high we seem so small..." being sick sucks. you know that? "...forgive me father why should you bother now..." i applied for a job at lemos feed and pet supply place. gosh. i need a job. really bad. "..even after i'm dead and burried, i'll still remember, i'll still remember. even after i'm dead and burried, i'll still remember, i'll still remember. i'll come back fighting.."