i dont understand... lemme tell you that story. me and jodan went to the park. and it was goin pretty well. (i should say, i do like him..) we decided afterwrds, that we wanted to watch a movie. so we rented.. some rob zombie movie. the devils rejects. anyhow, we were sitting there, and i was freezing my ass off. so he put a blanket on me. but i was still cold. so he put his arms around me. and it felt pretty nice.. and then after the movie, we were gonna watch another. we started to, but i had to be home 11:30 (my dads gone crazy, i swear) and he said i ahd already missed most of the begining (the cat kept clawin and bitin me o.o). so he took me home. hugged me goodbye. and then i didnt see him saterday. but then sunday, i did. and on my lunch break he asked me to go soemwhere with him, so i said ok. but the entire time he was bein a jerk to me. and i was like, "what the hell?!" so i started gettin pissed. but i didnt tell him. he said to me, "did that hurt?" and i was like, "yea" and he said "good". and i thought, oh thanks for breaking my heart so easily you dick. then after a bit more of that crap, he was all, "i thought if i was a jerk to you i could push you away and you would hate me. i didnt want to lead on with the other night." and i was like.. "...oh. its fine. other guys put their arms around me too whom feel nothing." cause tis true. after a lil bit, he took me back to work. and i was in a really bad mood by that point. and i talked to justin about. an he tried to help me.. but i dunno. anyhow the next day i didnt see jordan. and the next (tuesday) i did. and he knew i was pissed. i wouldnt look at him or anything. he texted me, "so do you like hate me now??" and i was all, "no. i told you. i could never hate you. i'm jus really mad." and hes all, "about what??" and i was all, "does the other night ring a bell?!" and he was all, "oh i didnt know it would hurt you so bad. i'm sorry in advance, even though it means nothing to you." and i was thinking, "sorry in advance?! advance is something you're apolozing for somethign you're going to do. not something you've done!" i dont remember how i repsonded. but then he said "ttyl :)" and i was all "bye." and then later on that night, we all went to san miguel. and he texted me that we needed to talk. and i was busy, so i said it had to wait. and he ended up texting me at the end of the night saying "goodnight." and i texted back saying we could talk the next say. and i saw him. and he said we needed talk. and he started talkin about it right there (at work) and i was like "wait, we should talk about this later, cause i dotn anyone else to over hear and get involved with something that doesnt involve them" and he said yea you're right. so i called him after work (i didnt get off til 9). and we talked. and it did make me feel a bit better. but.. i duno. he said alot is goin on his life. **shrug** but earlier taht day, he texted me with, "i cant control myself! i like you! and i'm scared." and some other stuff. and i thought.. "scared of what?" but i havnt asked yet. but i want to.. anyway, yesterday at work. he seemed to ignore me. but then i caught him in the hall. and he was all, "can i have a hug?" and hugged me like i hug him. like he was making fun of me. and i was all, "oh thanks make fun of me." and he jus laughed. and he looked at kim and was all, "she hates me" and i was like "wtf?!" but i didnt say anything. and he quickly ran off. **sigh** life sucks..