everytime im somewhere with someone, its like, im fine till someone else (someone better) comes along. im tired of bein the last resort to people ;_; even jason and travis do that to me. and now bailey and zach do it. but, its always been that way. ive never been "good enough" for anyone. i wish there was one person who was fine with me bein there, and when someone else came alone, they wouldnt jus leave me. cuz, im always lonely. and when people do that, i get even lonelier. and im always proven right that im not a good person...at all. i dunno. ive been thinkin of not goin to youth group tonight and sunday. cuz when im there, its basicly a waiste of time. yea, im learnin bout God. but no one really gives a crap that im there or not. *shrug* and i miss martin ;_;