well, 8 days left!! woohoo! i'll be 18!! :D i NEED a job, so bad. so i can leave.. my dad seems like he actually wants me gone. i wanna know who told him something, and what they told him. my mom wont tell me. but it's killing me! i've racked my brain trying to figure what i could have done wrong. and i can't find anything. i have absolutely no idea what i did. it's driving me crazy!! @_@ the other day, of what my dad said to me, is still eating at me. i dont know why i let it get to me. but i do. i guess it's true what they say. it hurts worse coming from those you love and care about.. well hey. i'm sorry i'm such a disappointment to you. i'm sorry i don't make you proud. i'm sorry i can't be what you want me to be. i'm sorry you're giving up on me. but i cant change how you feel. and you're right. i can't trust you. i can't trust someone who tells everyone everything i tell them. so you don't get that much from me anymore. and luke.. grr.. i talked to him. he lied. martin never cheated on me.. i had my doubts anyway. cause i kept thinking, "how could martin do this to me?" but really, how could he? he wouldn't. i knew that. (heart) but atleast i got to call martin! :D even though it was 4 in the mornin there.. and poor guy is sick ;_; i wish i could be there to take care of him =/ which is another reason why i need a job! but no one's hiring.. martin said he had some interviews :) * hopefully he'll do well ^_^ good luck ta him! :D ummm, i watch the exorcist 3 the other day. it was pretty good ^_^ i still hafta see the first two, and the exorcist: the beginings. and i still wanna see a bunch of others.. like the ones in theaters. but everything costs money.. and i dont have any.. cause i bought energy drinks :) lol. oh!! speaken of which! i had some new ones (plushie!! try these :P) shark, joker, and vamp. shark is soooo good. but! it still comes in second compared to a rock star :) lol. i guess that's all =/