i havnt talked to martin since tuesday...hopefully he doesnt go a long time without comin online again. cuz that would really suck ;_; besdies, i feel bad enough as it is... i realized, i didnt write in of what happend between me and brian...see, he asked me, "what would u said if i asked u out?" i thought it was jus hypathetical, but either way, my answer woulda still been the same. anyway, i said, "i only love u as a bro." and plus, im with it martin. and hes the only one i feel that way about. and brian said, "so u'd break my heart?" and i was like, "not intentionally...i didnt mean fer it to hurt u.."and then he jus said "...bye" and left. and he hasnt really talked to me. and i asked him if he hates me. and he never answered. soo, i take that as a yes. ooh, and im gonna turn in meh application at factory to you (a discount store). and meh friend jason asked me if i would wanna go to england. and i said yes. and we're plannin to go in march. so that its after i turn 18, and meh parents cant really say no. and if i work 20 hours a week, with a minimum wage ($6.75) i can make the money i need in 3 months. and since i have 9 months till we go, i'll surely make the money =D and!!!! i told martin all that, and he said he'll spend a week with me while im there :D but if i go somewhere closer to him, he can spend longer. but it doesnt look like anyone wants to go closer to where he lives. so, we'll be in london =) i cant wait =D and, aimee's tryin ta get out old friend cherice to go =) i hope she can. and travis might not be able to go cuz of his (and jason's) parents. and danny'll be livin here then, so he might go. but, then that'll make travis really mad..i dunno. but i cant wait!! =D ooh, and i can get a cell phone when i get the job, and i can call martin and other people i wanna call. but mostly martin =) lol. well, im off to street witnessin! =)