do you know what it's like to not be able to sleep at night, no matter how hard you try, tossing and turning, because the people in your life make you worry? worry about all them leaving you, even the lof your life; even though you know in the back of your mind that that could never happen, but the thought of it still scares you? and going about your days thinking everything is just a dream you can't get out of, and nothing seems real? and you think you're going insane and no one's left to save you? and no matter how hard you pray, you think can ever get better? and the only time something, anything, feels real is when you feel pain, any kind of pain? and you hate yourself with every inch of you, and no matter how hard you try you can't think of any good in you? do you know what it feels like to shake uncontrolably and not know how to make it stop, or even what started it? or what it feels like to have your own family talk about you literally behind your back as you're walking away? or what it's like to be away from the one you love, and the only one who can really make you happy; and when they're gone, each second seems like torture, like it's killing you? or, not matter how much make-up you put on, you know you'll never look good? or how much you vent or say how really feel, you'll never feel good or happy? or, how no matter how much you want to leave, you can't escape? or how no matter how much everyone says they understand you, you feel they never will? or how you can't go oneday without having a panick or anxiety attack? r how it is to be talentless? or to feel like you could never fit in with anyone, even people you've known for years? or what it's like to feel hopeless, or like a lost cause? or to not be able to find a job, after you've been looking for nine or so months? or what it's like to feel stupid, and be called stupid by friends and family? or what it's like to cry, and nt know why you are? or what it's like to be called a slut or a bitch by someone you dont even know? or what it's like to know there's nothing you can do to help someone you care about and it hurts you to see them hurt? do you know what it's like to not be able to go anywhere or have a place of your own, just to be alone? or what it's like to know you did something in the past that could never be changed? or what it's like to have people around you, but still feel alone? or what it's like to lose your best friend, because you pursued something that shouldn't have happend? or what it's like to not be able to trust someone, because you're afraid they'll be like the rest? do you know what it's like to be me?