This entry is for Robin. Bobin, I noticed that you left two comments on my last public entry which happened to be the night that Grant broke up with me. Yes, that is correct. I am no longer dating Grant. It has been almost three weeks now, and I'm doing alright. Thanks be to God and His wonderful comfort and love that He is so gracious to give me. It is too akward to be around Grant. I can't talk to him right now. I feel speechless, I mean, where do I even start? We dated for 4 months, and have been friends for almost a year and a half. I don't know where to go from here. We go to the same church, so it's kind of hard to not see him and to just avoid him all the time. I really miss his pressence and friendship right now though. God has been doing some cool things with me lately, and I feel like I should fill Grant in on what is going on with me. It's hard when you lose a friend like this. I don't know if we will ever be close like we once were. I would hope and pray that we could be friends through all of this. God commands us to love one another. How am I supposed to do this? It is hard I tell you, but like I said...God has been so gracious, because I know that He has my good in mind and that he isn't going to leave me or foresake me. So if it means that it will take time..much time..or not, I have to be content with Christ and Christ alone. That is what has been my main focus through all of this. That I have a Lord and Savior that interceeds for me on my behalf so that I can have a relationship with God the Father, the maker of heaven and earth..the one who raised Christ from the dead. So this earthly relationship, this temperol issue, this hurt that I have deep down can't compare to what God has in store for us who believe in Him. Focusing our thoughts on what is above and eternal is what matters. If God is pleased to bring another godly man in my life sometime then so be it, and if it takes longer..so be it..I am going to trust in Him who is worthy of my honor and praise. I am here to please God and not man. I thank God that He saved me, because I don't know where I would be right now...especially with what has been going on this past month...I can only thank Him for providing the true love, comfort and care that I need. The only thing I can do about wanting to talk to Grant or be friends with him right now even though it is super difficult is to just give him space and just pray for him. I personally feel he needs my prayers and space. It won't be much longer until he finally graduates from the university and will be moving on with his life. I would like to see him move out of his house and into an apartment. I am willing to be his friend...gosh, I just don't know how? Man, ok I'm gonna quit worrying and wondering. I was having a Remedy withdrawl yesterday...and today...haha. So I'm now in the ALTC lab listening to them on their website. Good stuff y'all. I'm still loving every song (mostly). I can't get over how biblically sound their lyrics are. It's great...oh, and they are great in concert too! : ) Spring Break was good. Went to Rado with my roommies. Shopped, ate out, climmed a mountain..fun stuff. Then I went to KC with Becca and Brooke. Oh good times. We had a blast laughing it up on the streets of the plaza as we passed dem' crazy Harry Krushnas (sp?), man...I had to go into Gap to get a lil' sumptin sumptin...won't explain anymore..yeah. It may not be what you are thinking though. It was either throw up due to fullness, or wet the pants. I think you can assume what went on from there. Good times all around. It was nice to get away from campus and Nebraska for that matter! With every breath flowing through ya let our God be magnified.