me and kelvin are having a disagreement over gg allin over myspace comments. i say hes awesome, he says hes not. i feel so broken up i just want to feel drugged being so fucking close to fucking is making me crazy im using all my willpower to not pick up my phone to call joey for coke but i wouldnt want him to know if i started, so id probably call pat for the coke i have this fucked up idea that drugs will give me something something that im lacking or craving needing something different. i lead this extrardinarily dull life. i havent seen any of my friends since i've been back from spain. i dont think i have any friends left. i have to fucking get out of my house