i'm okay, i think. i know that it's better this way. i need a nice boyfriend. i've been happy actually, i had a good weekend. i enjoyed myself at the party on friday night, i got a ride home with jesse to kayla's house. we got in at about 4:30 am. it was a lot of fun though, i was speaking a lot to victoria and cresta. about coke, but it was okay. and yesterday night kayla came over and we went to go see twilight, and came back to my house, helen joined us here and hung out for a while. talking to helen and kayla about what happened with joey made me feel a lot better about myself. helen drove home, and kayla slept here. and i worked extra hours this week, so more cash is good. i need to be able to spend some cash on beautiful things when i go to europe. but i will probably be seeing joey either tomorrow or tuesday. i wonder how i will feel.