11:32 am yesterday joey came over after school and it was a good time. i hate school, we cant be alone together. when we're in my room, we're totally careless and close. at lunch yesterday joey pulled out his phone to check the time and got it confiscated by mrs oneil, he punched the wall and was swearing loudly and obnoxiously, he can so angry. hes got a real bad temper. anyways he went to the office, he wanted to get suspended, whatever. at the end of lunch i walk buy and hes standing outside the office and i go talk to him quietly, and we end up hugging affectionately and mr fenlon walkd by and goes 'HEEEEY, save some for tonight! teenagers are insane.' and we both laughed cause fenlon is really cool and it made him a bit happier. well i was on my way to science class, and told mrs cormier joey might be late or not come at all, and she was like 'um ok.' so we did a quiz, of only two questions, so either you get 0%, 50% or 100%. i got 50%, i dont really care, because on my last science test (which is worth a lot more than a quiz, i got 100%) and joey comes halfway through class and answers bullshit on his quiz and comes sit next to me and talk quietly. i dont know, hes so cute. so my mom got pizza for us last night, and i felt really full and panicked that i ate so much, and then we smoked and fucked around a bit,i like being touched when im high, and i think its true that weed speeds up metabolism-im less heavy than like two days ago. i find myself wanting to smoke more and more often. i hope this isnt the start of something bad. sometimes he talks about how he misses coke, the feeling, and how he wants to snort coke with some girls who ask him for coke. he isnt a dealer anymore, and i know even if he gets them some even once, hell get hooked again... i dont want that to happen. i love him too hard. anthony had a soccer game on thursday at school and i was so excited to go and got him all excited that i was gonna be there and i didntcause i felt sick and it was really dark and crappy-looking. now hes all upset, i think i really hurt him. : ( THIS ENTRY WAS POINTLESS.