he admitted than since cuba he has not been enjoying sex, he hates pleasuring me, he forces it when i want it. so we're taking a sex break. to see if he'll miss it. he needs to get some things sorted out. i got screened this morning. i will get my results in two weeks. emotional turmoil. i feel weak. i've eaten a lot of carbs today. no fruits or vegetables. and i got some blood taken away from me (corpse). he was nice today.