i forgot to say that joey bought me a cute teddy bear for valentines day. i like it that he didnt give me chocolate, but i also didnt want anything at all. haha i called him at lunch and all is well. i really cant wait for these mood swings to stop. its unbelievable how the littlest thing screws up my emotions. i love the pill. but i also hate it. it's one of those things you can't make up your mind about. bittersweet, if you will. i think me and joey will give sex a break for a while. it seems to complicate things. then again, it makes everything better. danny came over a few days ago and gave me a better snare and cymbal stand. theyre really good quality and they shine haha. i need some liquor, weed and redbull. i also need money. ive been thinking about letting my ear holes shrink. im not sure though. i mean, at size zero, theyre not that big. but it seems that lately ive been interested in fashion more, and the jewelery i wear is not en mode at all. haha but im never taking out my industrial. that piercing is damn beautiful. oh, joey is gettng his eyebrow pierced soon. its gonna be so sexy. i just want to leave everyone and live with him in a little place on a lake. we're only happy if we're alone. fuuuuck i have to fill in the cegep application. and apply to john abbott through the web. did i mention i passed math?? ha ha ha. yeaaaaa i rule. well i dont have a fever anymore, so im cured and im going back to school tomorrow. i have to finish the big sleep tonight, and im only on chapter 28. oops. k bye.