i hatevalentines day. i thought i might like it because ive never been with someone on vday. but it sucked. we got into a huge fight when we got to my house. about how he wants other girls and i have to change my attitude because im too controlling and HE WANTS OTHER GIRLS. he was mad at me first of all, because my brother almost walked in on us, and because i ate chocolate. i cried a lot. after like three hours, we were alright again. but before we were ok again, i started feeling sick, like fever and nauseous and sore throat and everything. i was pale and felt weak. then he went home and came on msn after the hockey game was over and he wanted me to send him leftover crack songs, but he didnt want gay rude boys unite. i was just frustrated, because he is so closed minded about everything. he told me that when he went to get his hair cut, he wanted to beat up a guy who has an appointment for the tanning booth. is it really any of his business??? then he said some stuff, and so did i. i was crying a lot. i started feeling sick again and i got to my room and i am still crying. i write down some feelings, fall asleep. it takes a while for me to stop crying. i didnt go to school today. im afraid to see him, in a way. i know ill cry and he hates when i cry.