12:12am i'm waiting for 1am so i can take my second dose of emergency birth control. what the fuck. october 16 doyle died. i was really sad, i drank whiskey from the shotglass i got for joey in new york. i took tylenols beforehand, because i had a headache. the effect of drugs and alcohol made my body completely numb. i couldnt feel anything. i was punching myself in the face. i called joey and was crying and i worried him. i snorted some tylenol too, i woke up and my nostril was all blocked and painful. i dont know why i did it. joey found the cut straw on my floor and i didnt know how to explain myself. i couldnt explain myself. the nurse at the clsc took my blood pressure and it was high or something, she said it was probably cause im stressed but im worried that im unhealthy. i hope i dont vomit up these stupid pills.