i feel like complete shit. i've felt like this since thursday, wait, maybe wednesday even. since joey yelled at me that i can go and kill myself instead of reminding him of what he did. also, when my mom told me she knew why we broke up. and last night i got stoned with austin and it was terrible. and i am going to fail all my classes and i don't care. i could do the work and try but i don't fucking care. i'm so fucking fat it makes me sick, i wish i still had no appetite.. i lost about six pounds that week. i went shopping today and bought two sweaters from banana republic and the multi coloured gladiator sandals from nine west and i still feel like shit. what the fuck is this.