he has to get a blood test done, a doctor told him today that his liver was swollen. we saw a girl he did cocaine with at the clinic. she was with her mother and ignored me. smiled big at him. i get my results next tuesday. nervous and angry. since he quit drinking, he wants to start smoking weed again. i'm down, but worried about the heart palpitations that he used to get. i used to love stoned sex. the no-sex thing didn't last, he jumped me yesterday. it was romantic. i forgot what else to say. sober since november 12 2008. or june (or was it july?) 23, 24, 26th? 2006. feel better.