i want to save up $10,000 and go to australia until my money runs out. its funny, the most money i've saved up at any point has been $700. at least im not blowing through my university savings. (!!!) fuck new years eve. this year im lonely as hell. i wanted to go clubbing or get some drugs or something. i wanted to see anthony tonight, but im too antisocial to actually do anything like that. i miss daniel and josh. ill call them soon. alyssa invited me to a party at her place on saturday. im not into it. i cannot enjoy myself in a crowd. i really dont want to be in new school this coming semester. i just want to stay with daniel and josh. and mike. thats so fucking stupid of me. dawson has like 10,000 students, ill be lucky if i ever have classes with them again. fuck i miss joey. i really really do. i fantasize about sex with leo dicaprio.