coco'lado is only a temporary escape. these are the kinds of days its nice to have a mom who will just sit there with you and drink hot cocoa with ice cream and let you eat all the cookies you want. english and lunch made me think my day was good, and then the fatal words "We pulled out." in global, about vietnam, and just the way he said them for some reason made me want to hold him and kiss him, and then i was depressed and/or lovesick for the rest of the day... and when things got worse i had the strangest knowing that if i could cry into his shoulder it would make everything better. so after school i was still feeling down and then i got to feel frankie's hawtt chest (lol it sounds bad but it wasnt as much as it sounds) and then i got dickie to pick me up and spin around, and that was also a temporary escape. but once my feet were back on the ground the world came rushing back and my smile faded and there it was. i took a nap which was helpful but when i woke up i found out that my ears were needed... my godsister's life is a living hell and i have not the slightest clue how to help her... God help me to know what to do, and God help her to stay out of trouble. what am i supposed to do? and through the whole thing it was all i could do not to cry bcuz she needed me to be strong for her and i wanted to do that at least... but all i wanted to do was to cry with her and make her life perfect and give her all the good things ive had like solid love and people to trust, and things like that, and those are such simple things and she doesnt even have them! and then i wanted to cry into somebody else's shoulder, that one who i had the weirdest idea would do so much good... and then theres dom, teasing me about that, and even at the worst moments... he has his moments i guess, but today wasnt one of them. i guess his moments depend on my mood lol. these are the days its nice to know youre loved...