Wow. Yesterday seemed so unreal... You know all day I was all detached and whatnot, and then I came home and relaxed in the hammock and then the whole thing with my brother... That I don't want to put here cuz I feel like I shouldn't tell anybody until he's over it, but it's affecting me too so I dunno... I feel so bad. That's the kind of thing that only happens to pastor's families on tv. hahaha. It's so bad. I wish there was something I could do to make everything easier for him, I hear Lynch is a hellhole now. I should try to get him assimilated with my friends, cuz even though he's more sciency and we're more englishy we could make it work, and at least he'd have something constructive to do. Too bad he hates massive amounts of people, and my parties. Haha. Whoops... I'll have to work on that. Then the show... Also seemed unreal, it felt just like dress rehearsal and all the other practices, going out there... I thought I'd be flipping out cuz of all the people but I didn't even feel that aura I feel getting up to do a report in English class. Maybe that says something about my personality? Whatever. The show was tres, tres fantastique (pretending I know French haha) and we came in on all our cues almost perfectly... Shane and Dycky and Meggy and Jen and Marcky did awesomee... and Krista and everybody... Omg if you didn't come you don't know what you're missing!! And afterwards at Bosco's... ow. Haha Shane is crazy... And can't come to the cast party >:o but anyways. Haha he was being all Shane-tastic and like flipping me over and stuff... Can't waittt for the REAL cast party! When I got home at like midnight I still wasnt tired so I sat in the study with my parents and talked about stuff... Which sounds kinda weird but it wasn't, it was funny. Cuz at that time of night none of us are thinking quite straight especially after the Incident, and we say a lot of funny things like "Me gustamos. I think the world of us." hahaha. And "It's such a weird thing... I feel like I'm on 7th Heaven now cuz that only happens on TV, like when Mary got busted for making out in a police car or Simon came home drunk or ran over a high kid on a bicycle or something." haha :x OMG my cousin is adorrrable!! His name is Magnifico, so far, and he just got born like last weekend or something, and my aunt (who is an excellent writer, one of my favorite role models haha) sent us a letter and a link to tons of pictures of him, and he is soooo cuteee!!!! lol Whooppps... classic blunder on Will's voicemail last night hahahahahaha. And now he's going to the Broadalbin play instead. I guess he's closer to Mike than to me... But there are tons more people from youth group in Amsterdam than BP... ?