This past weekend has been superfun, despite all kinds of undercurrents and stuff like that hahahaha. Alice kept asking me if I was having fun and stuff, and also about what I'm going to do about "my problem" haha... But I wasn't only thinking about him like usual, so camp was a good break in that way. Like, gave me perspective on life and stuff. I spent more time thinking about people and character and families and relationships, and making observations. It was really interesting, the conscious realization I came to... Some stuff about myself but more about Alice (we talked about all this stuff) and the families I met and stuff like that. lol... As for the scenery it was beautiful. The weather was also gorgey, kinda cold on Saturday unfortunately but gorgey otherwise. The lake was really nice too, and the overall atmosphere was sooo relaxing and just comfy. Brilliant. lol. Friday Me n Alice drove around in the golf cart and established that everybody who doesn't stay off the roads when I start driving is gonna be dead. Pretty much. Or at least in the hospital. Seriously. Be afraid because I am the world's worst driver. lol. In a golf cart, no less! :x hahahahaha... We watched about 5 minutes of "Love Actually," got bored and went swimming and then drove around some more, me getting a feel for the campgrounds and just getting into the atmosphere, and then we got an invitation to play wiffleball home run derby with Joe, Joe, Bruce, Patti, and Doug, who was our age. lol. That was fun, especially because we'd both taken notice of each other at the beach earlier, and they were really friendly and we all kinda sucked at the game so it was all good. lol. Then we went swimming again, for like 5 minutes... We really had ADD this weekend... haha... Then back to the camper to play bartender and make killer pina coladas and such for the drunk adults haha. While it thunderstormed off and on and very finicky. lol. That was fun and we definitely perfected the art. We tasted to make sure the balance was right but that was it, because I don't like alcohol, in flavor or any other way, and refused to drink a regular one. And Alice didn't because I didn't. Then we took Fatty (haha) for a quick walk even though it was Day 8 and thanks to Ben I was still a little freaked out lol... But not really cuz it's too peaceful at camp to be freaked out ferreal. Mostly it was just an excuse to go past the campsite of our friends from homerun derby lol. :x I couldn't get to sleep again, from thinking too much as usual, the rain was beautiful on the roof of the camper though and I had upper bunk... Eventually I couldn't take it anymore and broke out Honeydo with the intention of turning it off when I got more relaxed and stupefied/pacified haha. But I fell asleep and was surprised to wake up in the morning (several times) to find that it had turned off but the battery hadn't run out. I was confused but very happy about that because my cellphone battery died within hours of arrival. Anyway... Saturday It was kinda cold so me n Alice woke up shivering, had some cereal and went to the bath house for hot showers and to do laundry. Camp laundry is so awesome lol. So we drove around in jeans and hoodies until it warmed up a little... Then we put on shorts and ditched our hoodies and took the DVD player and "Phantom" down to the beach to try and watch it, bought juice and fruit rollups on the way down cuz I don't drink soda much either, and that didn't work and anyway we didn't have much time left 'til stuffed pizza so we hung out at the game room until our quarters ran out and then went back up to the camper, where we sat around the fire listening to drunk grownups tell hilarious stories and be slightly racist... If they weren't drunk I woulda got mad probably. And found something else to do. But it was all part of my observatory process... We "got pretty," which in my case involved putting my jeans back on and my lacy cami, and brushing my hair haha, and for Alice changing pants, shirt, and putting on makeup, and then drove down to the octagon (how I think of it) and ordered our calzones nice and early. By the time Scott got there it was a 3-hour wait!! That's when we talked, while we were waiting for our thingies. And that was more around the time when Alice started being a little quieter and more pensive. Anyways, eventually we ate and then Scott and Courtney came and they're awesome, and then the band started and we sat around being grossed out by the 40-some-year-old in a seethru purple bellyshirt and black bra dance suggestively haha (nasty), and then when we got up to dance her hubby was checking out Courtney hahaha. Everybody was so drunk. It was a blast, me n Alice got all into it and talked to these other girls for a bit, I wanted to hang out with them more but Alice's version of being friendly is a little more reserved than mine haha. :x After awhile of dancing Scott and Courtney finally got their pizza and then we went out and sat on Mom's car to watch the fireworks. They were hott. In more than one way :-p The fireworks were cool, we went back inside for a few minutes then decided we were too tired and drove back up to the camper... On the way we picked up Scott off the side of the road haha, and gave him a lift up to his grandparents' camper, singing "Diddy diddy dum" the whole way haha, and then we went back to our camper and started a hott fire, roasted some marshmallows, then watched like half of "Phantom" (finally) until everybody else came in and made us get off the bed. We were too tired by that point to either argue or take the initiative to take the portable into our room and watch it there, so we just kinda crawled into bed, me in my clothes, and slept. Sunday We woke up a little past 10, feeling much better rested and stuff, and Alice made homefries while I tried not to cramp her style by reading "Reader's Digest" at the table :x haha. And untying Cassie's sneaker. Then we sat outside sharing past vacation stories for awhile, until the kids showed us the frog they'd caught in the ditch by Margie's and we went for a ride in the cart to find Dad and bring him back so we could drive back to Palatine Bridge to meet my parents... Nice conversations on the way back, I like Alice and her mom a lot. They are cool people. And then they get stressed and unhappy and it makes me unhappy. But not now so it's all good. Now I just have to coordinate, and try not to get too addicted or sad or thoughtful lol. :x Tuesday I leave for Minnesota on the train. I've started thinking again. lol. Balancing, wishing... *sigh* I really must be insane or something. haha