tortured as in YTF DOES IT HAVE TO BE NATIONAL HUG DAY ON THE DAY I HAVE THE PLAGUE AND NOBODY WANTS TO COME WITHIN 10 FEET OF ME!?!?!?!?!?! haha. and here i am laughing at myself and my own mishaps. gosh this woulda been the perfect opportunity, esp. if i hadnt impulsively yelled out something about lap dances in english when he was supposed to be reading the act IV summary for "julius caesar." and esp. if i wasnt dying and didnt look like ive been smoking hydrochloric acid... or something along those lines... i wanna go see phantom tonight with everybody including my new friend meghan who is awesome but i dunno if ill be up to it. on the other hand i dont suppose i would have an easier time sleeping... i might as well go except for the fact that that will most likely mean a longer recovery. *sigh* wtf is my issue. im not actualy in a bad mood... just kinda berating myself... bcuz i have almost nothing to lose, i figure ive pretty much lost everything with my impulsive, irrelevant, and hysterically strange outbursts, and theres nothing left, and im gutsy enough, so why cant i just DO something? i love postit notes. what a perfect opp i passed up. AAAgain. now i can laugh at myself again and lighten up. hahahahahaha. last night me, kat, and meggy had the funniest convo about prostitution and sex being cinnamon toast and heath ledger also being cinnamon toast and how we can all speak fijian and fiji having the best cinnamon toast and how cinnamon toast is the same in every language even polish despite all the extra letters its pronounced the same except for the "ski" at the end, and if you can ski in fiji, and fijian snow being cotton balls and cottonballskiing, and how that sounds like some horrible sex trick performed by polish immigrant fijian rapists, and meggy snapping at kats apple and how thats the new way to ask somebody out: "do you wanna go bobbing for apples?" and all of that bcuz meggy said im quiet and kat claimed that i only talk when the conversation is about hot guys or prostitution. i guess she was right ;-)