Yeah. ASGHSDFKSDHGLSKD pretty much says it. Why do I let stupid things overshadow everything? Why am I so dumb and why do I let them get to me and whyyyy, why, why can I not try for the other horizon? Sunset's not the only place to go, the sun will come up again in the morning... Why do I let myself get so involved and then fall so hard and get irrational and am I this bad under the opposite circumstances and YTF DO I NOT UNDERSTAND MYSELF?!!!?!?!? WHAT IS IT THAT I NEED?!!?!?!?!?!??? Five o'clock shadow in my margins and all up the side of my hand stained from spilling vats of furious chicken scratch on paper all night, all night waiting for my eyes to fall shut but they don't because they keep imagining your shadow in corners and on the floor and they shine and sparkle in hopeful hatred blaming you for everything and insomnia and five o'clock shadow smeared all over, all over a whole new world a new fantastic point of view ^^good song... but at this moment... I should really really turn it off cuz I'll probably start crying any minute now which is really really realllly dumb cuz in actuality I have nothing to cry about... But I know that in my irrationality whatever it was that just happened this weekend will make me dumb the next few days maybe i should sleep...