feeling better now :D i brought my concert baby home today, haha. regents week has begun and im totally free for like a WEEK! YES! DOUBLE POINTS! lol. today dickie told me that my shirt makes me look pregnant and kat told me it makes me look like a skank. haha. and to me its the hawttest shirt ever, and 2$. lol. i guess i shouldnt be posting my fears on the interweb haha, but ive come to a lot of conclusions today whereas before i was in denial, with the whole "the only thing to fear is fear itself" and i know what fear can do to people so i really didnt want to be afraid of anything... lol. but anyways. the deepest ones can be classified as "resident evil phobias": fear of great expanses of industrial white and walking dead people. hospitals and office buildings constrict my chest, like dead relationships. lol. which brings me to my type II commitmentphobia, being afraid i wont be able to get out of a relationship and hating the thought of hurting somebody... but the fact that i have that fear always makes me do it anyways. lol. and at the same time im afraid ill never find the One, though im absolutely positive he exists. *sigh* and im also afraid of being stripped of my identity. which brings me to lunch. lol. dickies the cool. he was all counseling me at lunch cuz i disliked 1984 while dom and dan were being mean lol. dan: yeah and i cant believe clara didnt like 1984! me: i told you, i like the emotional philosophy and the sex. up to chapter 3. other than that... dickie: sex? thats not very pastor's-daughterlike! what was chapter 3 anyways? me: oh i dunno but it gave me claustrophobia and made my chest close up so i threw it on the floor. dickie: maybe its the questions posed by chapter 3. aha. lol so yeah. then dom and dan started making references to doing horrible-sounding things to me so i "protected my reproductive organs" and then they all started making fun of me again for how i was gonna feed my children lol, and alice was sticking up for me (<3 her lol), and then dom said ill spit out my food for my baby and i conveniently started laughing and accidentally spit water across the table. lmao. yeah so my other half is being dumb. she needs to have courage and stick up to him, and ask him everything she wants to... and throw out the splenda for real sugar and freeze more water on the pond so she doesnt fall through. i know im not always right, but i hate to see her like this and its really affecting her and i feel the pain. lol. and i really think i might be onto something. this time. haha. maybe. lol. and hes being dumb too. am i being hypocritous again? :x lol. whoops... those eyes... *swoon* omg my hubby showed me a pic of her moms totaled hott car, and the whole passengers side was basically gone, and she was sitting there like 5 minutes before. the door was gone and half the seat, and the whole front was smashed in. *shudders* its scary.